During the 2020 lockdown and unusual confinement in my high rise New York City apartment, I turned the camera on myself to examine my day to day behavior. I was aware that others were feeling similarly. Michelle Obama described a "mild depression" which I understood completely. As the pandemic, the toxic political and social climate, and general quality of life presented a troublesome reality, I continued to make these photographs into 2021. Anxiety about aging and isolation remain, albeit with some hope for the future mixed in.